I'm reading social psychologist Ellen Langer's Mindfulness, a cross between a self-help- and research-book about learning how to spend less time "on automatic" and more time alert to the present moment. She starts the book out on the roots of mindlessness, such as seeing things in categories, going through rituals or rote-behavior, jumping to conclusions because of familiar contexts, etc., all of which most of us know all-too-well. So I found myself sort of nodding off in the beginning of the book, and having trouble picking it up again. I kept thinking, "oh geez, this again!" and then skimming over the details. Until I got to the category of not being open to new information, which Langer demonstrated by putting two "the"s together in the same sentence. In the next sentence she tells us she did it, and I'm snapped awake by realizing that I didn't even notice. This illustrates her research-finding that we prefer to see things in old, familiar forms rather than take in new information. So we'll read nonsense sentences or sentences with skipped or duplicated words as normal, filling in the missing elements without even realizing we're doing it. This is when I "woke up" and started really paying attention to the book.
And this morning, watching the Australian Open men's tennis final on TV, I found Langer's lessons about unmindfulness, things I thought I already knew, flooding back to me as I became aware of my own feelings of letdown as I watched the match. Longtime number one-in-the-world Roger Federer was up a set and a break over the new dark horse Fernando Gonzalez, whom I was rooting for. I realized that I was disappointed and bored because I was anticipating what usually happens: Federer up a set and a break is indomitable. I was doing several things to ruin the match for myself, among them limiting the future by seeing Federer as "unbeatable," seeing the resources of each player as limited and subject to entropy (the inevitable breaking down so that I anticipated the level of play as all downhill from here), and watching the match just for its outcome, ignoring its process.
I chose the most obvious of these and began to try watching Federer's process, so I could perhaps figure out how he wins all the time. I decided I'd start with his footwork, since this is what coaches look for when they're scouting for the next tennis prodigy: a young player's footwork. This necessitated taking my eye off the ball and the scoreboard to watch Federer's feet throughout each point. This was damn hard, and I harked back to trying to sneak past my dog Cody the other day, and how dogs are so drawn to a moving target that it's hard to avoid their peripheral vision. I recalled how I'd glibly differentiated myself from Cody in this way, but now found myself fighting a strong instinct to follow that little yellow ball. (You've all seen how the audience turns its head in unison back and forth as the ball flies over the net.)
Keeping my gaze to Roger's feet meant shifting my attention from the outcome of each point. But after a few points, a pattern emerged that had as much fascination as the ball and score. I saw that the most vigorous part of Federer's preparation is not when he's getting ready to hit the ball, but the split-second after he hits the ball. He strikes the ball, then - while everyone, including his opponent - watches the flight of the ball, Federer takes a series of quick split-steps (sideways bounces) to the quadrant of the court where the ball is most likely to come back (a simple matter of calculating angles and odds). In this way he collapses time (in Langer's terms), making the future of his next strike of the ball almost the tail-end of the last strike.
When I learned tennis, way back about fifty years ago, the most I could do with coaches' perennial warning to "prepare early," was to try to get my racket back closer and closer to the time I saw the ball come off the strings of the opponent. (I thought the game was about stroking the ball, not footwork!) It was very hard to do this, and in my decades of playing the game, I'm still not able to alter my stroke more than a few points a set. That's because the natural tendency is to watch the ball coming towards you, and then swing at it all in one continuous motion. Training yourself to see the ball early off the strings of your opponent and draw your racket back as you do, breaks this naturally fluid movement in two.
But that's just racket preparation. Roger Federer, of course, has it all: early racket preparation and - duh! - footwork. His eager bounces sideways on the balls of his feet immediately upon striking the ball are - in Langer's schema - because his future (the next ball that will come at him) dictates his present (getting into position). He strikes the ball, then his anticipated next strike moves him across the court.
Watching things this way makes the result of his first strike almost incidental. Time after time, I found myself watching his feet and wondering where the ball was, disappointed when Roger stood still for an instant waiting for the ball, in perfect position, and the ball ended up smacking the net off his opponent's racket. For the first time (after watching Federer play for years!), I got an inkling of how it must be to be Federer, the disappointment he feels when the ball doesn't come back. Now, at last, I can hear what coaches of the past meant when they said that at net you have to want the ball to come back. If you don't, if you're afraid of it, or just standing there flatfooted hoping your opponent will make a mistake, you might as well go back to the baseline because you'll never be any good up there. Roger's wanting the ball to come back, no matter where he is on the court, reverses the normal context of the play. (And this is why he's a champion). I had come to the match with the assumption that either player welcomes the errors of his opponent. Watching Roger's footwork instead of the ball turned that assumption on its head. This is what Langer calls changing the context.
At the awards ceremony, Roger again changed the context. Instead of abiding by the ritual that has opponents keeping to their chairs on either side of the umpire's box while the trophies are brought out, Federer gets up, goes over to Fernando Gonzalez, and leans down to him, putting his face on Fernando's level, asking him questions then cocking an ear to really listen to his answers. Fernando looks slightly taken aback, giving cursory answers, then smiles, looking wistfully after Federer as he's whisked away by tournament officials. In a few minutes, they're on the podium together, and Fernando's talking up a storm to Roger, both men clearly relaxed and happy. It's wonderful to see, and even though Fernando, when given the microphone, says "This is the hardest thing I've had to do in the two weeks of this tournament," he goes on to give a relaxed and authentic thanks to audience, sponsors, tournament officials, and to Roger, "a wonderful person."
It was a great match, both on and off the court, and Langer gave me the tools to see its greatness, something I would have missed if not for her. It's one of the first times I've wanted to write a fan-letter. But first, I guess I really should finish the book!